Don't get worked up about tomorrow...
Blessed beyond measure
It was Sunday morning and I had moved to the couch around 3:00am after two little people crawled into my side of the bed and had me sleeping on the edge. A few hours later I remember waking up to a sharp pain in the back of my head which was no surprise as these headaches were the new normal for me for the past 30 days. As I sat up the room began to spin, I attempted to walk but failed, my heart raced as sweat began to drip of my forehead. The left side of my body turned numb and words were hard to get out as I asked my husband to call 911. He tried to put me in the shower but then realized something was really wrong with me when I couldn't stand on my own and began to get sick. The next thing I knew he had me in the car racing to the ER. I am not really a fan of doctors, hospitals, medicine, as I live more of a natural lifestyle completely opposite of this scene. Don't get me wrong those doctors, hospital, and iv's were a complete blessing in my time of need I just avoid them whenever possible but this time that was NOT possible. After four days in the hospital, lots prayers, MRIs, CT scans, and close observation they let me go home with no explanation. I seem to think I put a lot maybe too much stress on my body, robbed myself of lots of B vitamins plus other stuff, and worked my blood pressure up higher than my body could handle. You see the past month was stressful REALLY stressful. We moved from Colorado to California and not even a week later were faced with a decision whether we were gonna move to Michigan or not. I know those things may seem small to some people but they were a lot for me, too much all at one time.
Through this process the Lord showed me something great. Matthew 6:34 (the message) "Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don't get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes."
You see I was so busy worry about what was gonna happen tomorrow that I wasn't living in today, trusting in the Lord. I wasn't sleeping, I cried a lot, I worried about how the decision would affect family and friends. Yes I prayed and sought the Lord in our decision about Michigan but I still worried about it. That's not trusting God. It took me getting admitted to the hospital and laying in a hospital bed to realize the peace and comfort that came from trusting in the Lord about TODAY. This is because in that moment I knew I was in God's hands, he had full control of the situation and I could do nothing but have faith and trust in Him. He told me he was gonna heal me and He is! After I left that hospital I prayed and prayed that the peace and comfort I felt when I was there wouldn't go away, and it hasn't. I have been proactive to put things in my body that will help keep it healthy but all the glory goes to the Lord.
I am so blessed to be taking care of my kids again, riding our bicycles as a family, cooking, doing laundry, driving, enjoying sunsets, living for today!
Today was a super blessed day for me. I got to spend the day with my kids, sister, and nieces and nephews. We packed a lunch, gathered our sand toys, and headed up the hill. I am so grateful for this day the Lord has given me. Sweet memories stored up forever!
Singing songs in the outdoor amphitheater
Barefoot in the cool water and sand between my toes.
Sippin Cali Tea from my favorite mason jar tumbler
This tea has helped me tremendously by the way. It is expensive but so are hospital visits.
Sweet niece of mine.
Handsome rock climber.
It is so wonderful to hear that the Lord is healing you and that you are seeking and trusting Him. I prayed constantly that this wasn't a reason why you needed to stay close to family, that you would be divinely healed and symptom free. It's amazing what stress can do to us and I hope things will settle down for awhile so you can continue to heal. Continuing to pray for you and Jason as you seek out the Lord's will and follow Him, I know that He will use both of you mightily in a church.ReplyDelete
Thank you for sharing so openly and honestly here in this space. I love how the Lord uses blogging to gently remind me here and there of things and ways I need to draw closer to Him.
Thanks for the prayers and encouragement Teresa. I know the prayers have been answered. I hope you and your family are enjoying SUMMER. Many blessings on you girl.ReplyDelete